so yea.. i'm up at again.. it's 12..

i'll probably be up untill at least 130.

just because.

.......
i hate reading all my chuck friend journals. because i always feel shitty after reading them.. christina went out and had a good time last night. marc saw spiderman with his girlfriends. chris got drunk. annalise got drunk. .. fuck this.

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i want what everyone else has.

.. is that too much to ask for. ?

maybe just a little.
not all the wild parties and stuff.

the little things. the freedoms. the friends. the girlfriends. the cars. the motorcycles. the looks. the health. the luck.

the luck.

the luck.

the leisure.

... or at least you could have the decency to leave me alone.

or just to call and chat.

depending on who you are..

i still havn't woken up. i'm still asleep.
afraid of the waking, afraid there is no waking. every waking moment.

enough caufield shit.
-M@