geez.. today was really comfusing..

just got off the phone with grace about 5 minutes ago..

i don't know how i feel about her..

i want to help her.. that's for sure.. because everyone needs somebody when they're hurting..

i don't know wether i like her or not.. i mean.. my record with homeschoolers and wierd people is not exactly pleasing.. and plus.. what if we did start something up .. i mean.. she then couldn't tell me all the problems she might have then.. especially if they were about me.. and i'm going off to college soon.. and definately don't want to mess her up .. hurting her if i moved and all..

.. but she makes me feel different . .
different from the way carrie made me feel.. like i was fitting in and all..

grace makes me feel important.. and i don't know wether that's good or not.. so .. expect more of this contemplation in latter journals..

bed is callin..

-M@