hey sara, how about you get a life?

it was an okay day today, i did a whole lot o' nothin.

i want to go and see chels, but she's busy.
I went to this really awesome church service today. it was cool.

yea, that's about the extent of it.
-M@

confused, torn. but not sad. at least not sad.

i need to make a decision. or will it be made for me.
resolution may be impending.

why do i write in cryptography lately?.. maybe it's because most of my entries now are at 1 in the morning.

pssh.
-M@

Joe is not a skater.

captain flannel has super flannel powers.
Hatman is way more awesomer.

more later.. chewy is talking
-M@

i woke up crying this morning.
it's never happened to me, i remember crying with aunt louise in a dream, and then i woke up , and it was real,
It was about how we were talking, and she was saying how proud she was of me, and how she used to enjoy going fishing with me so much, and just the times when we could sit and talk.
I remembered the deep sea fishing fiasco, and i laughed.

But i woke up, and my pillow was covered in teardrops, and my face was red in the mirror.

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This has never happened to me before.

I don't understand what it could be, I teared up just writing the above about what we were talking about, so obviously those subjects mean a lot to me.

I just don't know if it goes deeper than that.

like some sort of subconcious thing.
?
-M@

forgot, forget, forgotten.
it's all the same when you don't remember.

so it turns out that as soon as i write anything on this supposedly dead blog, i get milions of IM's on every kind of subject,

from sara's constant snooping.
to kyle's concern (which was kind of nice, i guess)
to leigh ann's reassurances.

im surprised that mom hasn't written me anything about it.

is it nice for you to know what i think when i'm angry?

i'm not angry in this entry, but chances are that if you check back in the next week you'll find another caufield-esque smattering on this thing.

i hope ivan goes away. i want to go to the house and have mom meet my friends. she keeps asking all sorts of questions about them.

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I went and saw the secretary of the film club today,
he was rude to me.
about the site i made.

i'm going to show it to the president of the club,
if he's rude too.
then i don't want anypart of this club.

tired again, i have a cold now.

at least monica and steve and i are on speaking terms now.
that's a plus.
-M@

so. yea. i'm back.. and jealous as ever.
and sick.

and mostly jealous.
of my best friend.

the weekend was fun.. really fun.
i don't know if everyone likes me still though, it's like .. now that everyone's paired off. i'm on the back burner. again.

fuck
-M@