damn..

she's not interested.

nobody is. ever. lol.

i wish i could rewind the last 4 fucking years of my life.. and play them out like they should have gone. no mount dora. no carrie. no nathan cornell.. that motherfucker .

more annalise. more patriots. more IB.

i didn't happen the right way. this isn't right.

i keep telling myself that i've moved on. that i'm ready to go to college.

and i feel that i'm finally ready for high school. not college. .. like i can do it right this time.

but it's over.



fuck.


i'll try one last time.. with her that is. maybe.

i dunno..

confusing.

or is it just not worth putting myself up for rejection again..

damn.. here i am .. like this.. and i was giving advice the other night.

lol..

venting
-M@