.. i think that i'm cracking up..

sigh.
well.. i mean.. is it too much to ask for a guy to be happy???

i think that everytime i start liking someone.. i turn this way.. unhappy..

i hate women.

i hate living this way.

i think that its a fallacy.. the way people think that theres "the one" for them.. like to me.. it's some sort of lie. or something that "they" do.

on the other side..

life is coming at me too quickly.. i'm not sure if i'm ready to get out .. to go to college. to get a job..

lol..
to get married.

screw you all

-M@

so.. yea..

times like theese reming me that we are all just emporary.. like some fleeting moment caught for the mind,

it dosn't even matter.

in other news..

>> i have absolutely no luck with the people i like.. i think that maybe i'm not trying hard enough/ too hard... maybe i'm just destined to be celebate.. or i've just had bad luck..

whatever it is it's making me down right now.. and i'm not liking htat.

i hate people.

my father put some content advisor on my IE5.. he underestamates me.. i know how to hex that in like. 5 minutes.. but i don't think i will..

what's the point.?

>> today i modded a flash photo camera to shock the hell out of the person taking the picture.. it's not done yet.. but when it's finished it should be funny to see in action..

yea..

well..

i'm going to bed.. nothing's worth doing anymore..

maybe tommorrow wont suck so damn much.

i hate people
-M@

alrighty then..

since i got some email that say that people are still coming here after a little leave of absence.. i'm going to write some more.

i had an idea coming home from church today..

why dosn't somebody make a car called the monet?

you could make it classy, yet affordable... and the dash would be a monet painting..

and you could do an ad campaign.. "more monet for you money"

and then do a commercial to the song "he works hard for the money"

and show some guy working , and then getting into the car..

it would be brilliant..

and it would be an interesting play on words..

well.. more later.. i'm going to go pirate some files.. ARG!
-M@

sigh.. .. got back from guatemala.. and now life gets more complex..

i wonder.. if life was a diagram.... that is getting more and more complex.. can you stand back from it and look in? .. and see the complexity.. or just see the whole picture..

i'd like to see that..

maybe..

anyways.. nobody ever comes here anymore.. so i think i won't write anything else here until someone tells me that they read this trash i spew..

so .. on that note.

later
_m@

matt_moeller_steamroller@yahoo.com