dud3!!! i got a sony handy cam for christmas!! awesome..

uncle bob came over.. he's only the coolest guy in the galaxy..

yea..
so.. later.. i'm gonna go film a project

today i got a boner..

no .. really.. i bought a trombone on ebay for about 50 bucks.. lol..

it should be here soon..

nohting too exciting has been happening.. lost my car keys.. can't find themm.... it's pissing me off.. i hate it when i lose stuff.. went caroling tonight.. and as i speak.. just about my whole neighborhood is in my kitchen, go0rging themselves on some h0t ch0colat3...

went to disney on sunday.. got cold.. saw gay people.. listened to dad whine and bitch about how (we moved too slow/ the lines were too long/ disney has lower morals now that they let gays have gayday there/ how fastpasses will take over the world)

just a normal day at a theme park for my family..

oh well.. at least i have a father.

after all.. what would i whine about if i didn't have him??!?

called ann for a quick conversation yesterday.. it turned into an hours worth of phone call.. she told me she hasn't talked to louie in a while.. and how she went to a drinking party last week and walked out.. because it was weird..

dare i hope that she sees my point of view?? .. no... i shouldn't.. it would be foolish..

well.. later.. company is about to devour the refigerator.. and i must hold them off with a cattle prod.

-M@

ahh.. it's the break now.. and i've lots of time to write and mark up my script..

now.. hmm..

i saw LOTR 3 ROTK yesterday.. and it was the bombdigity!!!!

woot for legolas..

wanna go see it again some time..

i think that i wanna go read my mail now.. so excuse me. .

-M@

just had some really good ice cream.. so.. yea..

copied this from jake, who copied from gos, who copied from heather, who copied from.. .umm.. yea..

01. When I was younger I made some retarded decisions. have you seen my 5th grade pictures?? geeZ?
02. I love white ringer clothing
03. My parents do talk to each other
04. I live with my mum and dad
05. I like to bake barbies on the beach.
06. I love being creative
07. I appreciate all kinds of music
08. I love people who TypE LyKe D1s. Teh H4x0rs 1s teh B0mb! W00t!
09. I admire classic Hollywood hotties.
10. I don't work at the moment
11. I have 6 aunts and uncles.
12. I hate people who are coquettish.
13. I have many aquaintences, but few friends.
14. I am usually happy.
15. I dont like Justin Timberlake's look or music
16. I am staying home for Christmas
17. I have a pet dog named Bagle.
18. I love cats and dogs
19. I have good eyesight
20. I don't remember any song lyrics from songs. thats why it's no suprise to me i am my own worst enemy.
21. I hate my hair
22. People say I act.
23. I live in a rural area. but then again all of florida is rural. right?
24. My favorite color is Blue.
25. My favorite flower is self rising.
26. I don't like my appearance.
27. I don't drink
28. I like eating out at places other then fast food joints
29. I like getting snail mail.
30. I feel people will usually get over my bluntness.
31. Cell phones annoy me in movies only.
32. I love reading journals. 33. I love food (eating and creating)
34. I watch more than five movies a day.
35. I appreciate old people, unless there in line in front of me. and then i'd apreciate living someplace where the birth rate at least matched the death rate.
36. I'd love to take a dance class of some kind, lord know i need it.
37. I relish interesting people
38. I'd like heather to give me kristin's high heels.. um.. sorry.
39. I am a weirdo.
40. I am having no dreams at the moment.
41. I love the open spaces in my town
42. Telephone poles sprouted over night in front of my house
43. I'm strait
44. People are more important to me than money will ever be
45. I love to act, any time i can.
46. I like reading.
47. I own embarrassing cds
48. I dont care that I own embarrassing cds ex. vivaldi, dmb, etc.
49. My best friend is living in charleston, about 1,000 miles away.
50. My favourite vegie is lima beans
51. I work best with noise
52. I wear boxer shorts around the house in the morning
53. my eyes are like a blue smoothy tripping on some lsd. seriously, take a look some time.
54. bank tellers frighten me
55. I miss home. or am i home.. that's another time..
56. Goofing off is nessicary.
57. I remember silly details
58. I enjoy laid back people
59. I like when my friend's write me letters and emails, it makes me feel special
60. I'd rather eat dinner at 6 then at 8.
61. I'm very patient
62. I look like my mom
63. I never put my laundry away
64. I am a virgin
65. I associate songs with people all the time
66. I love music
67. I am an internet addict
68. I love, but does she?.. nah.. girls are petty.
69. I hate procrastinating, but I do it too much.
70. I am tired
71. It unnerves me when people quote my journal ( hey!)
72. I wake up and 7:00 every school day 9:00 every weekend
73. I last cried over how i can become as angry as my father does.. that was.. hmm.. monday?
74. I like to get lost in bookstores
75. I don't get any cards at any time of the year.
76. I wish I could quit my life at times
77. I love hearing my friends be proud of their accomplishments
78. I aspire to be a kinder and more loving person
79. I like rooms with white walls, the soft kind that you can slam into and not get hurt.. yea.. those kinds.. have you been there too?
80. I hate waking up extra early
81. I believe that nothing will be okay
82. I know my family well
83. I speak with a southern accent when being silly.
84. I love my life
85. I dislike closed minded people.
86. I like to do things in a logical way
87. I rarely get snail mail
88. I have decided ice cream is addictive and I'm an addict
89. If I hate my school, I have a hard time getting up for it.
90. I like drama and debate
91. I think being honest with someone is the greatest gift you can give them (even if they dont think so at that moment)
92. I love rock music
93. Personal radios annoy me in public
94. Fresh prince is nice
95. I'm happy with myself
96. pleasing god and myself is my life goal
97. I criticize the radio djs when they stumble over words i know.
98. I adore witty humor
99. I hope i am going to College.
100. i wanna take over the world.. after some ice cream.

.. dude..
i'm tired.. and i wanna go to bed.. but.. yea.. i got hmwrk.

i heard pod's youth of the nation like a billion times this weekend.. it must be a sign..

later.. i wanna talk to ann
-M@

1 thought(s) for big sigh.... (by Sprite)

that is sprite..

.. sigh..

drama try outs today were tough, lots of losers.. not many winners. .

about 5 guys tried out, of which, we need 8..

geez.. and now mrs. haynie wants me to do like,, all of 5.5..

hell no!

.. well. i think i might do it anyways..

i think that i need to put ann on the spot.. to .. well..
tell her that i want to know where i am able to go with our relationship.. or even wether we have one or not..

yea.. lets face it.. girls are stupid..

. oh.. and make sure to email me any angry and condecending remarks about how i sucked at try outs / am wrong about girls sucking...

matt_moeller_steamroller@yahoo.com

lata . . i'm off for calc, and to call ann..
-M@

.. #@Q^%%*&())*&(^ZZ@#$*&()*&$##@$*^%*


.. my mother .. .. ..
and my stupid dad..

they are evil..

i'm going to skat kat's party on friday.. and mom says.. : " is there going to be drinking? is her mom going to be there? who all is going.?

etc..

wake up! i'm 17.. i can make sure that i don't screw up.. i dont need little old mommykins down my throat..

and another thing..

i HATE.. HATE.. HATE.. women..

can't someone just come along that's nice, stable, and likeable? .. is that too much to ask.. ?

.. anger^2, angst^2, lather, rinse, repeat..

shuuddup! or i'll get H4X0r on you!

-M@

> hey!
> ahemm. woah, that was a lot...kind of...i dunno,
> cause i dont wanna hurt
> your feelings...i kinda noticed that i really like
> you too , but you know i
> have my boyfriend back in germany and i really dont
> wanna cheat on him...wouldnt
> be fair...
> but i like to spend much time with you
> anyways...it's always funny, even
> though you dont like pippi longstocking. lol
> you have to know though that i didnt just want to be
> friends with you only
> because of the video...i hope you dont think that.
> i'm sorry to tell you that, i hate doing stuff like
> that to anybody but
> we'll see what the time brings...
> night night, anne

lol.. sent the first letter to some one who wasn't ann.. oops.!
new letter :

geez.. the band tonight was okay.. but the flag girls messed up royally a couple of times.. falling over.. dropping things.. etc. . i just got back and its already past the time at which i like to go to bed..

need help on the oral part? you can always try speaking to me first.. like a test run.. ..

no.. the message i wrote you dosn't get saved to my computer here.. i did save a copy.. but now that i look at it i'm glad that i didn't send it to you.. it was much to formal.. so.. let me just give you what i wanted to talk about in simpler terms..

ahemm.. : )

.. as you can probably tell, i've started to like you.. i didn't mean to, but stuff happens..

this is a problem.. for a couple of reasons..

1: you and i both leave mt dora in may.

2: you have a boyfriend back in germany, and i don't want to screw anything up for you

3. i don't know if you feel the same. it could be that you like where we are now, which is good enough for me.

if you can.. write me back or call me sometime tonight before 1015. i'd like to know where you stand .. if that's not too much to ask..

don't worry about your project. i'll help you no matter what.

hope that wasn't too serious for you..
-M@

.. i think that i hate anticipation..

she still hasn't written me.. which leads me to draw 2 conclusions,

1. she has not checked her mail yet.
2. she has checked her mail, yet resfuses to reply for some odd reason..

oh my goodness.. my sister's boyfriend is touching me.. that's gross
oh boy..

anyways.. yea...

now i think that i'm going to watch tv and wallow in my misery..
bye
-M@

.. nervous as heck right now.. ann still hasn't written me back from the letter i sent her last night..

churning in my head.. like some cursed washing machine.. everytime you think that everything is fixed the thing flips you over..

it's 945.. i'm dead tired.. but i'm also so anxious to hear back that i'm looking for things to do online to kill some time..

have i mentioned that i hate girls today? no..? okay..

the parade todya was okay.. though not awesome.. i think that i'm over it.. maybe i'll try to set up msn messenger. to try to talk to heather..

lata
-M@

wrote this to ann today.. i want to know what everyone thinks of it..

matt_moeller_steamroller@yahoo.com

Dear Anne,

Something has been bothering me lately, i was wanting to talk with you about it on the way home, but i think you wanted to avoid the subject.

so, i thought that i could write you about it. i mean.. it seems to be a good way to talk to each other, so here goes.

I think that i'm starting to like you anne.

This complicates things for me for some reasons, among them is the fact that you have someone waiting for you back in germany, and secondly is the fact that i never expect to see you again after May.

Another problem is the fact that i don't think you share the same feelings as i do. which is why you want to avoid the subject.

i was wondering if you could write me a mail back sometime to tell me where you stand, i promise that i won't over-react one way or another, i just hate not knowing what you think about this.

sorry to get all serious on you all of a sudden, it's just that i've been meaning to have a conversation on this for a long time, and the right moment hasn't happened.

-M@

you know.. i think i like it when it's not christmas..

it gives you something to look forward to .
am talking to jenny online.. havn't seen her in forever

i'm completely jazzed about the play.. right now..
because we just got out of a 2 hour casting meeting to decide how casting will work

i need to do stuff now.. so .. mail me with any complaints
-M@